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Location: Room
Mood: 
satisfied
satisfiedDumbass!
Hanging out... Down the street...
The same old thing... We did last week...
02 September 2008 @ 05:16 pm
13 May 2008 @ 10:40 pm
OMGWE'RELEAVINGSCHOOLONTHURSDAY.
And as my exams draw nearer and nearer...I enter the stage of panic.
The thought of my exams are petrifying me. We went over the 2nd English paper today and I feel fine with that...in fact, I'm not worried about any of the English exams. History I'll be alright with...IT is...I wish I never took IT now. I hate it so much. Art is out of the way and I know I've gotten an A for that. Textiles I've gotten a B for. French is just revising the vocab seen as my speaking is done. Science...meh. I'm alright with that. It's maths I'm most worried about.
Thing is...I've never been good at maths. Ever. Ever since I was small I've struggled. And now I've got to get 80% on both calculator and none calculator papers in order to get the grade I need is fucking stressing me out big style.
The way the exams are layed out over here is you have a higher paper - which goes from grade A* all the way down to an F - And foundation which goes from F to a C. I'm sitting foundation for Maths. And you have to get 80% in order to get a C grade...I will never. EVER. in a million fucking years get that C. I could get C's and B's and A's in all my other subject because the boundries for a C aren't as high. Why, oh why, for the love of every fucking God, in the one subject I've struggled with all my pissing life, does the C grade boundrey have to be so fucking high?! Are they doing it to annoy me or something? Do they want me to fail maths?!
Collage said that if I don't get the grade I need, then they can help me get it. I don't want to do another fucking two years of maths. I want to go to collage TO DO ART. That's the one fucking thing I'm good at and I've wanted to be a famous artist ever since I was a little kid and my Uncle Rob told me I was a good artist. I just want to go to collage and focous on my art.
I really am petrified. It's been praying on my mind for so long...I can't even concentrate properly. All I'm thinking about is failing maths.
My mum siad to me a few weeks ago that I'm the most determined person she knows. That I set my mind on something and I'll do it. And will never give up...but I don't know if I can do this or not. I'm so scared about failing.
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And as my exams draw nearer and nearer...I enter the stage of panic.
The thought of my exams are petrifying me. We went over the 2nd English paper today and I feel fine with that...in fact, I'm not worried about any of the English exams. History I'll be alright with...IT is...I wish I never took IT now. I hate it so much. Art is out of the way and I know I've gotten an A for that. Textiles I've gotten a B for. French is just revising the vocab seen as my speaking is done. Science...meh. I'm alright with that. It's maths I'm most worried about.
Thing is...I've never been good at maths. Ever. Ever since I was small I've struggled. And now I've got to get 80% on both calculator and none calculator papers in order to get the grade I need is fucking stressing me out big style.
The way the exams are layed out over here is you have a higher paper - which goes from grade A* all the way down to an F - And foundation which goes from F to a C. I'm sitting foundation for Maths. And you have to get 80% in order to get a C grade...I will never. EVER. in a million fucking years get that C. I could get C's and B's and A's in all my other subject because the boundries for a C aren't as high. Why, oh why, for the love of every fucking God, in the one subject I've struggled with all my pissing life, does the C grade boundrey have to be so fucking high?! Are they doing it to annoy me or something? Do they want me to fail maths?!
Collage said that if I don't get the grade I need, then they can help me get it. I don't want to do another fucking two years of maths. I want to go to collage TO DO ART. That's the one fucking thing I'm good at and I've wanted to be a famous artist ever since I was a little kid and my Uncle Rob told me I was a good artist. I just want to go to collage and focous on my art.
I really am petrified. It's been praying on my mind for so long...I can't even concentrate properly. All I'm thinking about is failing maths.
My mum siad to me a few weeks ago that I'm the most determined person she knows. That I set my mind on something and I'll do it. And will never give up...but I don't know if I can do this or not. I'm so scared about failing.
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scared11 May 2008 @ 11:13 pm
I'M MEEEEELTING. OH FOR THE LOVE OF GOD.
So erm...We had a thunderstorm this afternoon...and it was literally just that. A thunderstorm. Like no lightning :| It was actually pretty crappy too. THe thunder wasn't even that loud or anything. But it did linger for quite a while so...yeah.
Got all my pictures printed for my leavers book...got 50 in total D: GOOD LORD. Yeah my book's really heavy now lololol. You wouldn't think that a few pictures would make it so heavy. XD I still need moar pictures too. MOAR, I SAY.
Ohhhh god I leave school in 4 days D: The closer I get to leaving, the more alarming it gets for me :P
And this song is awsome <3 Kimya Dawson I love you for doing some songs for the Juno Soundtrack (can't wait 'till that comes out on DVD *excited jig*) <3
Off to bed now <3 -xxx-
Is it wrong to laugh at your mother when she's scared of birds and a bird just swooped down and nearly hit her on the head?...And then she nearly cried?
Why yes. I am sadistic. SHE DESERVES IT. Yellin' at me when she's in the wrong.
Does anyone else have a mother that no matter what she does, she's never in the wrong? :| Drives me up the friggin' wall I swear to God.
Also if I upset anyone last night I do apologise. Alcohol makes you say and do strange things.
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Why yes. I am sadistic. SHE DESERVES IT. Yellin' at me when she's in the wrong.
Does anyone else have a mother that no matter what she does, she's never in the wrong? :| Drives me up the friggin' wall I swear to God.
Also if I upset anyone last night I do apologise. Alcohol makes you say and do strange things.
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relaxed11 May 2008 @ 01:17 am
Saw Iron Man. It was awseom ;D Ending was crap though.
It was far too hot today. I was working tonight and the lounge was just like. BLLLLLLARF.
Yes. I am dring...lol I can't spell xD
I'll see this tomorrow I'll be all like "OMGWTF. I CAN'T SPELL LOLOLOLOL."
Cideeeeeeeer. Is my friend. Takes like apple jhuise :D
And I finally het an ecuse to use my drunk mood icon. Go underaged drunking ;D
NIGHTY NIGHT. -xxx-
P.S. Dies anyone read my jounrals. 'cuase I read yours :( And y'know it actually upsets me that no one replys to them. It's like I'm talking to myself. And a lot of people are stuck up their own arses. And don'y you hate it when you watch someone on dA and they watch yuo back...and then you comment on all their things but not once in about...2 years have they commented on any of your art or journals. That REALLY annoys me. :|
'k...Bed nowwwwwwww.
It was far too hot today. I was working tonight and the lounge was just like. BLLLLLLARF.
Yes. I am dring...lol I can't spell xD
I'll see this tomorrow I'll be all like "OMGWTF. I CAN'T SPELL LOLOLOLOL."
Cideeeeeeeer. Is my friend. Takes like apple jhuise :D
And I finally het an ecuse to use my drunk mood icon. Go underaged drunking ;D
NIGHTY NIGHT. -xxx-
P.S. Dies anyone read my jounrals. 'cuase I read yours :( And y'know it actually upsets me that no one replys to them. It's like I'm talking to myself. And a lot of people are stuck up their own arses. And don'y you hate it when you watch someone on dA and they watch yuo back...and then you comment on all their things but not once in about...2 years have they commented on any of your art or journals. That REALLY annoys me. :|
'k...Bed nowwwwwwww.
drunk09 May 2008 @ 11:03 pm
So tired...
Going out tomorrow with Foot. Going to see Iron Man...
I~ AM. IRON MAN. DOO DOO DOO DOO DOO DOO DOO DOO DUN. DUN. DUN.
I do that every time the advert comes on TV ;D *Is such a dork*
Took more pictures today...and then at lunch time just as I'm about to take some photos of Rachel, my bloody battery goes :| I was not amused.
GLAD THAT'S OVER.
Now I must get to bed. Because I'm very tired. -xxx-
Location: Room
Mood: 
Oh so tired.
Oh so tired.08 May 2008 @ 09:45 pm
French Speaking went down amazingly well :D Mrs McKei said that I was very good and that I could get a C. But she said 'cause there was some pronounciation mistakes then I might get a D...but a really high D...so as long as I do well on my listening and reading exams, I'll be fine. :) Yeeeeeaaaah, and she thought I wasn't paying attention these past two years. |D
Still unbearably hot. It's terrible sitting on the field at lunch. You're like...baking. :| Our uniforms are black aswell so that reeaaally doesn't help. But lol we all just sunbathe all lunch. xD;
I've been taking some more pictures for my leavers book. I'll take some more tomorrow and then post them tomorrow night. :) I've gotta get them all developed of Sunday aswell so I take me book in to school next week. Gettin' everyone to sign it. xD Maybe get some teachers aswel lol. <3
Omg aaaaah. We're leaving next Thursday. XDDDDD My god 5 years has gone so fast. D: Part of me doesn't want to leave 'cause I'll miss everyone </3 But I just wanna get away from that fucking school...I couldn't stand another two years there. I think I'd go mad. Fairdose like, it's just as well I'm going to collage 'cause politics isn't running in 6th form next year and I really wanted to take that and they don't do politics in collage...how gay. :|
I appear to be watching a lot of Hellsing lately too...Mainly the OVA's. I like Seras way more in the OVA's than I do in the actual series...She's a lot less annoying xD And Integra and Walter are hella cool. <3
And I've also been getting the urge to listen to My Chem a lot lately. Not that it bothers me. MCR fuckin' rock. |D lol I remember when "Welcome to the Black Parade" came out and all the chavs were bumming off it and me and Jess were like "Oh yeah we like them before they were cool >D" lol
This journal was longer than I expected -xxx-
Still unbearably hot. It's terrible sitting on the field at lunch. You're like...baking. :| Our uniforms are black aswell so that reeaaally doesn't help. But lol we all just sunbathe all lunch. xD;
I've been taking some more pictures for my leavers book. I'll take some more tomorrow and then post them tomorrow night. :) I've gotta get them all developed of Sunday aswell so I take me book in to school next week. Gettin' everyone to sign it. xD Maybe get some teachers aswel lol. <3
Omg aaaaah. We're leaving next Thursday. XDDDDD My god 5 years has gone so fast. D: Part of me doesn't want to leave 'cause I'll miss everyone </3 But I just wanna get away from that fucking school...I couldn't stand another two years there. I think I'd go mad. Fairdose like, it's just as well I'm going to collage 'cause politics isn't running in 6th form next year and I really wanted to take that and they don't do politics in collage...how gay. :|
I appear to be watching a lot of Hellsing lately too...Mainly the OVA's. I like Seras way more in the OVA's than I do in the actual series...She's a lot less annoying xD And Integra and Walter are hella cool. <3
And I've also been getting the urge to listen to My Chem a lot lately. Not that it bothers me. MCR fuckin' rock. |D lol I remember when "Welcome to the Black Parade" came out and all the chavs were bumming off it and me and Jess were like "Oh yeah we like them before they were cool >D" lol
This journal was longer than I expected -xxx-
peaceful My fringe appears to be pissing me off somewhat....Mainly because it's not cut how I wanted it :| I mean...I love the way Abbie cuts my hair 'cause she does it in the most goreous way...but she never seems to get the fringe bit right :c
I've got my French speaking tomorrow. D: My god I'm neverous. I'm sure I'll be ok...I got top marks for me mock so it might not be so bad. c:
Jesus it's been so hot these past few days. We went from winter to summer in the space of a fucking week. It's rediculous. We're British. We need our rain damn it....But the sun IS nice :D I'd just like it to be a little less hot kthnx. <3
Not much else to say really :) Hope everyone's doing ok <3 -xxx-
I've got my French speaking tomorrow. D: My god I'm neverous. I'm sure I'll be ok...I got top marks for me mock so it might not be so bad. c:
Jesus it's been so hot these past few days. We went from winter to summer in the space of a fucking week. It's rediculous. We're British. We need our rain damn it....But the sun IS nice :D I'd just like it to be a little less hot kthnx. <3
Not much else to say really :) Hope everyone's doing ok <3 -xxx-
Location: Room
Mood: 
hot
hotFrench sreaking exams on Thursday D: Urg. So don't wanna take it. French is a damnedable lesson. Except for when Lewis ties a piece of cloth on his head and screams "I AM RAMBO" fo five minutes like today ;D
Took some photos today for my leavers book (which I still need to buy). Only on my phone though. I'm taking my camera in next week and taking shit loads of photos for me book :)
Oooh! I'm getting my hair cut tomorrow :D My god it needs it. Soooo many dead ends...-xxx-
cheerfulWhat the hell is this. No-one's on msn D: *so ronerly*
I managed to piss some woman off last night at work. ;D GO ME. So basically...her and her boyfriend went to go have a smoke (fucking long smoke) and their drinks had been left for ages...I mean ages. Like a fucking hour. So even thought they had a mat on them, they'd gone flat and no-one had touched them so I just took them away. So about 10 minutes later she comes back, finds out her drink's gone and goes to the bar to play hell with Becky. So Becky calls Jamie and basically...Jamie told her to fuck off 'cause he really couldn't be arsed with her. So THEN she comes out the loung and goes into the bar where Jamie was and starts playing hell...again. So Jamie tells her to fuck off. And she goes back into the Lounge and sits down. So mum tells me what happens and says "If she says ANYTHING to you, come tell us" So I go out and the woman catches me and goes "Don't collect people's pints when they've got mats on them. LOTS OF TROUBLE'S BEEN CAUSED HERE D<" so I'm like..."Yeah. Alright love." So just before she leaves about 10 minutes later, we're all in the bar and she comes in with a piece of paper and and says "I suggest you put this up!" slams it on the bar and walks of. By which we all turn around and go "OOOOOH." ('cause we're all a responsible and mature group of people LOL) and then one of Timmy's mates turned round and went "GET YA TITS OUT." and we all lol'd like fuck (Except for Kipper who kind of winced xD) and she's in the hall making all sorts of hand jestures at us ;D So then I walk over, get the paper and read it out "Customers leave pints @ own risk when going for a smoke" My God we wet oursleves. :D Good times....I love my job.
Grandad Barrington's birthday today. He's 66. Old Git. xD; We went round to his house for a bit of a buffet. We did get a pinata aswell...But it decided to piss it down all afternoon. :c So no pinata for us. </3
That's aboot it. -xxx-
Location: Room.
Mood: 
calm
calm Speakers are still picking up radio transmissions ;D LOL.
Errm. Foot's back in school. OMGYAY. <3 I never realised how much I missed him :c Buut yeah. He's got a heart problem or something and is going to be off tomorrow 'cause he's gotta go to the doctors for a check up...And he smokes too so that doesn't help. D: SMOKING IS BAAAD.
James Hall came out he was gay on Tuesday... At first I thought it was a rumor people were making up...but Megs is in his maths class and she said he stood up in front of the whole class and told them. I'm still trying to get my head round it. I mean...I'm happy for him and I think he's very brave for doing what he did...but it's like...I've known him since I was five and not once has he crossed me as gay... What I'm also happy about is that no-one's made fun of him for it. Which is good. Cause when everyone found out I was bi I got called all sorts of names... But yeah. Good for him. <3
Erm erm erm....yeah. Teacher strike today. Not all of the teachers...only the ones that are part of this union which I can't remember the name of xD; But Mr. Hastings and Mrs. Parr weren't in today 'cause of it. So biologys lesson we did fuck all and arts lesson we had a bastard of a teacher who wouldn't let us put the radio on...so we put our iPods on instead :) Dave Matthews FTW. <3
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Errm. Foot's back in school. OMGYAY. <3 I never realised how much I missed him :c Buut yeah. He's got a heart problem or something and is going to be off tomorrow 'cause he's gotta go to the doctors for a check up...And he smokes too so that doesn't help. D: SMOKING IS BAAAD.
James Hall came out he was gay on Tuesday... At first I thought it was a rumor people were making up...but Megs is in his maths class and she said he stood up in front of the whole class and told them. I'm still trying to get my head round it. I mean...I'm happy for him and I think he's very brave for doing what he did...but it's like...I've known him since I was five and not once has he crossed me as gay... What I'm also happy about is that no-one's made fun of him for it. Which is good. Cause when everyone found out I was bi I got called all sorts of names... But yeah. Good for him. <3
Erm erm erm....yeah. Teacher strike today. Not all of the teachers...only the ones that are part of this union which I can't remember the name of xD; But Mr. Hastings and Mrs. Parr weren't in today 'cause of it. So biologys lesson we did fuck all and arts lesson we had a bastard of a teacher who wouldn't let us put the radio on...so we put our iPods on instead :) Dave Matthews FTW. <3
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Location: Room
Mood: 
sleepy
sleepySo my new speakers arrived today...Which is all well and good.
But here's the wierd thing.
They're picking up radio transmissions...from places like America and France.
...WTF.
Ok France isn't that bad because it's only like a 10 minute flight.
But America?!
C'mon! There's a great big ocean between us.
My brother on the other hand seems rather amused and excited about the whole thing... :\
Weirdo.
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curious Textiiiiiiiiles.
So we're preparing for our exams...And I went to get a sharpener and then Mrs. Hearn started to talk about my coursework;
Miss: You know...your coursework mark was absolutley outstanding.
Me: ...whut.
Miss: Yeah you got one of the best scores in the class... you got an extremely high B.
Me: D: OMG.
Miss: You know what you've got to do now?
Me: ...Revise?
Miss: Yes you jolly well do 'cause Rachel, if you do well on your exams, then you're looking to push that grade up to an A.
Me: ;JSNGJK;SDNGSDGDS.
I could have hugged her xDDDDD; Made my fucking day knowing that I got a B+ in my coursework. And given the fact that I actually thought I was doing absolutley SHIT in my folder, I'm even more happy.
Happy happy happy happy happy. HAPPY.
Errrm...That's about it really. Weather's terrible. :c It's cold and it's wet. And as much as I love my Minnie Mouse coat it doesn't keep me warm like my Tourchwood coat does...And it has a useless hood. D:< Keeps falling off my head. What's the point in a hood if you have to hold on to it to stop it from falling off your head?!
More portfolio work now -xxx-
So we're preparing for our exams...And I went to get a sharpener and then Mrs. Hearn started to talk about my coursework;
Miss: You know...your coursework mark was absolutley outstanding.
Me: ...whut.
Miss: Yeah you got one of the best scores in the class... you got an extremely high B.
Me: D: OMG.
Miss: You know what you've got to do now?
Me: ...Revise?
Miss: Yes you jolly well do 'cause Rachel, if you do well on your exams, then you're looking to push that grade up to an A.
Me: ;JSNGJK;SDNGSDGDS.
I could have hugged her xDDDDD; Made my fucking day knowing that I got a B+ in my coursework. And given the fact that I actually thought I was doing absolutley SHIT in my folder, I'm even more happy.
Happy happy happy happy happy. HAPPY.
Errrm...That's about it really. Weather's terrible. :c It's cold and it's wet. And as much as I love my Minnie Mouse coat it doesn't keep me warm like my Tourchwood coat does...And it has a useless hood. D:< Keeps falling off my head. What's the point in a hood if you have to hold on to it to stop it from falling off your head?!
More portfolio work now -xxx-
happy08 April 2008 @ 05:23 pm
I've got vertigo~! ;D
So I took today off school. Got up and felt dizzy. So I sat down. Got back up and went to the toilet. Then I got really dizzy and nearly threw up. Decided to go and get breakfast before I got dress but I couldn't even get into the dining room without wanting to fall over. Mum said I went really pale and told me to stay off.
Yet dad still didn't believe me. He phoned around lunch to see how I was;
Dad: So how are you?
Me: Alright.
Dad: Do you still feel dizzy?
Me: Dunno really. I'm alright when I lie down. But I can't walk so...
Dad: See...there's a bit of a question mark above all this.
Me: ...And that means?
Dad: Well how do we know that you're not just faking it so you can skive off school an extra day?
Me: Dad, mum said I didn't look that well this morning.
Dad: Well of course if mum says you're ill then you must be ill.
Me: ...No dad. I'm genuenely ill.
Dad: Ok if you say so.
Honest to god I could kill that man sometimes. D< Grandma and grandad came round at about 1:30 to check up on me. And I told grandma dad thought I was lying about being ill;
Me: Dad thinks I'm faking it y'know.
Grandma: Well I hope he gets vertigo so he knows how it feels.
Me: LOL. Well he thinks I'm faking to get off school.
Grandma: ...Well. I hope you get sick so you can throw up all over him. Then see what he has to say.
;D Oh god my grandma is awsome. She's still pissed off with dad about the other week when he made me cry in the pub. So~ I think she's gunna go ape at him next time she sees him. xD; Should be funny.
Going to do some coursework now -xxx-
sick07 April 2008 @ 08:57 pm
That out the way...I'm going back to school tomorrow. :c And my exams are in 6-7 weeks time. So I need to be revising. Which means I won't be able to update as much. I'll probably be updating during the weekend...but that's it...
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Location: Room
Mood: 
angry
angry03 April 2008 @ 11:43 pm
content03 April 2008 @ 12:04 am
God I love watching BBC Parliment. It's like watching a bunch of 10-year olds xD;
Nothin' much going on here. Kinda bored.
So I'll pose some art ;D
G2G to bed now. KTHNXBI. -xxx-
Nothin' much going on here. Kinda bored.
So I'll pose some art ;D
( Art ahoy~. )
G2G to bed now. KTHNXBI. -xxx-
Location: Room.
Mood: tired
tired01 April 2008 @ 01:40 pm
So...dA's gone and turned all our icons into "SO I HERD U LIEK MUDKIPS??"
D: I'm...worried? And slightly confused.
...I dun wanna be a mudkip D:< This calls for n00b icon!
AND YOU CAN'T EVEN CHANGE IT. I tried to and it just said "U DON'T LIEK MUDKIPS???" in big writing. D:<
...I don't even LIEK mudkips. YEAH. I SAID IT.
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D: I'm...worried? And slightly confused.
...I dun wanna be a mudkip D:< This calls for n00b icon!
AND YOU CAN'T EVEN CHANGE IT. I tried to and it just said "U DON'T LIEK MUDKIPS???" in big writing. D:<
...I don't even LIEK mudkips. YEAH. I SAID IT.
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confused30 March 2008 @ 11:13 pm
1) Went to see Meet the Spartans with Nichole and Jord. OMGGOSEEITNAO. I lol'd. LEAVE BRITNEY ALONE. 4srsly, It's nearly as good as Epic Movie. We also went to Borders and I got meself some Naruto Manga. I'm such a Narutard. ;D
2) Power cut. D: Lol we had to go to Grandad Turley's house. That house smells funny. And I don't like being in there either...my nana haunts that house and it makes me feel uncomfortable. I get a sense of nostalgia aswell. Makes me want to cry. ;D I STILL REMEMBER WHERE EVERYTHING IS KEPT THOUGH. It's like when she died everyone kept having to ask me where everything was. I know that house better than grandad lolz....I miss my nana ;__;
3) I worked last night and managed to piss some woman off. xD; Apparently, twice I took her mini wine bottles when there was still something in them. So I went back to the bar to get the wine bottle she had...THERE WAS FUCKING NOTHING IN THEM. Stupid bitch with your stupid hat. D:< Take your own damn wine to the bar next time.
4) Broke up with Calvin. Well actually...Nichole did it for me. I was too scared. And I wasn't having him doing the whole guilt trip thing and tricking me into going out with him like he did the last time. I'm not sure why I went out with him actually... But... I was in that relationship longer than any of my other relationships and I'm not attracted to him that much...I just kept putting it off when I was going to break up with him :C
5) Appropriate icon is appropriate. :>
Hope everyone's doing ok. Going to sleep now. -xxx-
2) Power cut. D: Lol we had to go to Grandad Turley's house. That house smells funny. And I don't like being in there either...my nana haunts that house and it makes me feel uncomfortable. I get a sense of nostalgia aswell. Makes me want to cry. ;D I STILL REMEMBER WHERE EVERYTHING IS KEPT THOUGH. It's like when she died everyone kept having to ask me where everything was. I know that house better than grandad lolz....I miss my nana ;__;
3) I worked last night and managed to piss some woman off. xD; Apparently, twice I took her mini wine bottles when there was still something in them. So I went back to the bar to get the wine bottle she had...THERE WAS FUCKING NOTHING IN THEM. Stupid bitch with your stupid hat. D:< Take your own damn wine to the bar next time.
4) Broke up with Calvin. Well actually...Nichole did it for me. I was too scared. And I wasn't having him doing the whole guilt trip thing and tricking me into going out with him like he did the last time. I'm not sure why I went out with him actually... But... I was in that relationship longer than any of my other relationships and I'm not attracted to him that much...I just kept putting it off when I was going to break up with him :C
5) Appropriate icon is appropriate. :>
Hope everyone's doing ok. Going to sleep now. -xxx-
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